well i finished up my sophomore year of college yesterday! so exciting to think i'm halfway to my first college degree! actually my academic advisor said that if i keep taking 18 credits i may be able to graduate a semester early! wow! that would be awesome. i could get a head start on the job market and have a little bit of time off from school before it was time to hit the books for grad school!
i'm just not sure where i want to go to grad school. i've narrowed it down to MSU or CMU. both schools have some great perks. both could provide some great career opportunities for me down the road. it really comes down to to what i want to do for the rest of my life. if i lean more towards news and television then CMU is the place for me, but if i'm looking for PR, HR, advertising, or theory then MSU is the place for me. ahhh. i'm really running out of time to decide. i need to start applying to places now! yikes. i am a little behind schedule. but i have all summer to worry about that.
i got a job at redwood! well dan got me a job haha. so i'm pretty excited about that. i also applied for some office job in flint that would give me 40+ hours a week. which would be great because i need MONEY! i have to pay for my books in these upcoming school years. though i'm grateful that that's all my parents are making me pay for! but i also want to buy a macbook so i would like to save up for that too! i love my laptop but it's just causing me sooo many problems and i've never seen anyone with a mac have problems. but that's more money!
i am still tossing around winterguard. i can't imagine my life without performing, but with colton not coming back and renee not coming back to staff i am carpool less. we won't be world class, plus i have marched a, open, and world class. if i was to just teach would that be so horrible? i am going to be a junior in college. i need to start planning for the rest of my life. i love colorguard and it will always be a part of my life, but perhaps it is time for me to transistion to teaching? but i'm only 19! i have 3 seasons left! erggh decisions. i guess for now i am just playing it by ear. i love to perform and i love color guard but.... it can't always be my whole life, it's not my major and i have to grow up eventually. who knows. it's always on my mind. i probably won't be able to march dci ever. this makes me SO sad, but. i just can't afford it cost wise and time wise. it breaks my heart, but i am coing to terms with it now. i just just love guard so much. ugh.
i scraped by this semester grade-wise. i HAVE to start doing better! this is not acceptable. i always say that at the beginning of the semester though and then three weeks in it's like nope i'm over it. i have to stay motivated! i will try harder (the last, first time!)
i am really really excited to be teaching carman again, almost all of my kids came back and they all want to work hard. they added 3 bands into flight 1, and are now taking 11 bands to finals - making our chances harder, but that's not turning the kids away. they're so dedicated to producing something great as a team and that's all an instructor can ask for! i'm really happy! our first rehearsal is saturday and i have 13 signed up! i'm hoping i can rope in some more kids!!! the hardest thing is that you have to be in band to be in guard at carman so that really limits numbers, but i completely understand benjy's reasoning for this rule because it's not like GB where it's a class and you have to show up and it's easy to find you because you're always in the band room. these kids all have lives outside of band, although there are of course the few and faithful band geeks (:
i really miss choir. oh i miss it so much. i mean band is whatever, but i just ugh. want to sing so badly again! i really want to do NCC but in fall i have marching band and in winter i can't do any of the concerts because of winterguard. another reason i considered at least just taking a season off from guard...
haha someone(s) is (are) asking me a couple not so nice questions on formspring. of course this is to be expected because it's the internet, but i guess they kind of came out of nowhere and caught me by surprise. i know i'm by no means "fat" but i'm already self-consicious about my weight after interplay and dance is over, but i also know this is my fault for not going outside and just being active. but it's hard to make up for running around all weekend to just... not. i know it's just excuses, and once mike gets home he's going to help me train for the crim, so i'm pretty excited for that. and the other question they asked me about jade what the eff hahaha. so dumb. that was like a year ago. clearly all three members of the situation seem happier due to the changes in our lives so i think it all worked out for the best? or am i wrong? if i am let me know. haha i felt like my freshman year all over again getting those stupid questions, but of course i'm going to answer them because i'm not going to back down to what is most likely some immature underclassmen from grand blanc high school. news flash - i've already been through it all sweeties, i've dealt with some shitty drama and lived to tell the stories. i'm a college sophomore with a major in COMMUNICATIONS. who's going to win this, really? do you REALLY want to start this? I don't want to be dragged down to your level, but if I am, I will beat you, and leave you saudy (or is it saud, or saudee) face. hahahahaha. sorry.
alex and i are great as always! i never could have pictured myself so happy in a relationship! he really is too good to me! but you've heard all this mushy stuff before! tomorrow is his quartet recital, so i'm really excited to hear him play again! it's always great when someone shares their passion with you. it's like getting a look of what's really inside their heart. haha corny. sorry! well this has been a sufficient first rebirth of lj post. more later i am sure!
well, lj has once again died, but i am once again making it my mission to bring it back! plus i love reading these things. i know in our day to day lives it's really difficult to post a lot, but i think it really helps us keep up with each others lives and what's REALLY going on. not just facebook stalking. because we talk about what's going on in our lives but also how we feel about it. idk perhaps it's just me trying to hold on to things that are meant to let go...